I wrote this on April 20, 2020. My heart was broken and did not have the courage to upload the post, I just wrote it while tears fell down my face as a catharsis. 

I miss my Mum and I miss Blanca as much as I miss her. Both were so much loved and I devoted so much time and effort to keep them well that when they passed I felt useless for some weeks. But I needed to pay tribute to this wonderful animal that was more than a family member. She was a kind spirit that God put on earth to make our lives be surrounded by softness and tenderness. I cannot believe how much she loved us until she softly went to sleep surrounded by all the love we could give her. 

"Today I had to put my beautiful pet, my companion for 11 years to sleep. Her fragile body would not keep so much love and sweetness. As with many rescued dogs, the years of living in the streets and sleeping in the cold took their toll and she suffered from arthritis for the last 5 years. Her back bone and legs could not support her any more in spite of all the vitamins and acupuncture and all the treatment we gave her.

Last Saturday she had so much pain that she almost fainted and that was when I made the decision of letting her go. I miss her soft fur and her expressive eyes. I have never seen so much unconditional love in the eyes of a dog!!

Since I retired from my administrative position at the university and started spending more time working at home, she would always lie by my side while I was working at the computer and would only stand up if I did to go to the kitchen for a snack for both of us.

I could talk to her,scold her if she didn´t want to take her medicine, hug her, kiss her and would always receive her love back. I have had several pets along my life but Blanca will always be a special one. Nobody could love me the way she did and I will never forget her.

My Mum passed away last month, she was the one who rescued her and I think now they are both together, in a better place, enjoying each other´s company, they could not be parted when they were alive and now they will never be".